Im Breakin Down ..

Its hur Bdae on friday .. Bought a Cake fer hur n celebrate it aD Ayu's place dat nyte itself .. I tried makin hur dae , bt ii jux get worse ..
As much as ii wan tuh c hur smyle , ii end up bringin tears tuh hur eyes ..
I dunno if its jux mye or its realye hur hu hv sum1 else ...
Im nawt doubtin hur ...
Bt im jux nawt strong tuh tke anie more of dys ..
ppl cummin tuh mye sayin stuffs bout hur ..
i'll b lyin if ii sae im nawt hurt ..
ii dunno whether itx true or nawt ..
bt hearin it jux wanna mke mye cry ...
n sumhow ii feel naw ,
she've change ..
she's no longer e Ryan ii used tuh noe ..
iimysh dat gurl hu ii fall in love whit ..
as iim typin dys ,
Hell yesh , im Cryin naw ..
Myshin e tyms ii spent whit hur b4 our R/s bcame lyk dys ...
mayb tuh hur , everything ish still e same ..
tuh mye , everything change ..
e laughter turn tuh tears ..
e smiles turn tuh frowns ..
if ii cld turnn bck e tym ..,
ii wld wan tuh go bck tuh e dae we still Dating ..
n mke e tym stop ..,
so ii cld live muh lyfe everydae lyk dat ...
i love hur ...,
bt does she love mye e way ii do?
idk ...


_LoLa_

Something I Just Cant Admit Tuh Hur ..

Ferstly , im deeply in love whit Ryan Mckenzie ...
Losing hur ish e laz thing ii ever wan tuh happen tuh mye ..
Eventhough she had a bad past , people keep brain washing mye abt hur ..
I juz dun care ..
Im in love ..
Who r deyh tuh stop mye frm being whit hur ..
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When im whit hur , she told mye abt sumone hu love hur more dhen hurself ..
Hw she cried fer Ryan , hw she gv hur advise n stuff ..
Hell yesh! ii was jealous ..
Coz ii guess naw , she's still in Love whit Ryan ..
I cant stop Ryan frm ctcing hur ..
She was derh even b4 ii came into Ryan's lyfe ..
I dun wan tuh b selfish ..
haish ...
Im giving muh chance tuh get tuh noe dys Angel ...
I called hur dat coz frm e way Ryan told mye abt hur , she jux sound lyk an angel ...
I met hur once , bt we din even tok ..
Yesh , smiled tuh each other ..
dats ol ..
Frankly speakin , ii dun even noe why ii wanna myt hur dat day ..
Sum how naw , im feelin insecure ...
Scared of losing Ryan tuh hur ...
Haish ..
Dys ish So nawt mYe !!
I dunno why ii feel dys way naw ..
Gawd, gv mye e strength tuh tke dys ...
e ryte way ...
Lola Lola ...
just Go whit e flow ..
=)